Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in preylikemantid's LiveJournal:

Monday, April 4th, 2005
2:08 pm	Sometimes I find it necessary to make a list of things that make me happy; if for no other reason than to remind myself that I am still capable of feeling as such. - - - without further ado - - - Happy List 4.4.05 minor pentatonic scales with passing note - aka 'minor blues scales' (zen) jazz theory redemption & carphax files tour in may bouncing souls - hopeless romantic cheese fries from east coast subs planning my next tattoo dual-wielding magnums in halo 2 - yes...i'm a dork - - - that's about all i can come up with right now...but it's enough to keep me going Current Music: American Steel - Got A Backbeat
Friday, April 1st, 2005
12:29 pm	only calm music for a few days. remember to breathe. work is not life. stress and panic are not life. things are the way they are, and all you can choose is how to react to them. sadness will consume you if you let it. roll with punches, and keep head above water. no coffee. no head-fuck movies. good will come in time. it always does. the pendulum swings both ways. work towards goals and happiness, and breathe deep. Current Music: Red Sparowes - Buildings Began To Stretch Wide Across The Sky, And The Air Filled With A Reddish Glo
Thursday, March 17th, 2005
3:24 pm	I've lost myself, again. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 13th, 2005
2:56 pm	Sick of searching. Current Music: There Will Be No More Scum-Frodus-And We Washed Our Weapons In The Sea
Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005
3:15 pm	life goes by halo 2 until my right wrist creaks and pops shop n' go instant curry punk rock jumprope combining jazz, industrial and sludge metal dreaming big, acting small yoga vikings are cooler than pirates and ninjas combined social anxiety run amuck 'holy shit, i have pecs' self-medication can lead to emotional sterilization and an inability to discuss feelings still love boobs, still love dasha want to play music with david...who better be practicing his bass our walls are too naked...need to do a large scale joint multimedium piece with anna (any ideas?) (structure stolen from anna, who stole it from clark, who probably wrote it while high) Current Music: oingo boingo - flesh n' blood (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 20th, 2005
10:17 am	I'm in full-on cabin-fever/hermit mode right now; and going to the concert last night made my social anxiety painfully obvious to me. My social operating system needs to be re-installed and upgraded. Current Music: haujobb - less (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 10th, 2005
10:55 am	( depressed mantra ) Current Music: black cat music - down pretty low (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 5th, 2005
2:38 pm	huddle together for warmth, as mammals do in times of cold. the half-asleep, the calmly sedated. white noise descends with grace; no qualms about it's future. beauty and death engulf those that dwell on earth; the way it's always been and always will. fists clenched, knuckles white, he strikes a match to the music of winter and pushes through another day. Current Music: John Coltrane - Resolution (Part 2) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 13th, 2004
4:06 pm	Musical plans the next 48 hours. Saxophone tonight - bass tomorrow. Jazz one evening - whatever the hell Matt and I make is classified as the next. Variety is the spice of life. - - - Companies are pain in the ass to start up - especially LLC's. Get to spend 'Christmas break' (all three or four days of it) registering and trademarking, designing, printing, laying out a website, and ironing out shipping logistics. Hopefully this endeavor goes somewhere. I have hard-working, talented and dependable people to work with. I'm dedicated to it. Visualize success. Current Music: in-progress demo material - 'tastes piney' (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 10th, 2004
3:05 pm	fuck yeah it is             doom metal is love brought to you by the isLove Generator Current Music: old man gloom - sleeping with snakes (Comment on this)
12:08 pm	Clear skies for the first time in at least two weeks. Breathable air again...hooray. The body is at work - the mind is elsewhere. Fixated on home and things to do. Dirty-toned bass riffs to layer on top of songs in progress. The small mountain of quality art files to redraw and sep out for shirt printing. Good things going on. Plans coagulate and solidify - stay on top of them. Current Music: oceansize - unravel (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 9th, 2004
4:56 pm	note to self As time rolls by, I'm slowly coming to terms with the horrors of the world and my singular inability to change the nature of the beast. Things are as they are - good and bad, every day - and all I can do is deal with them. All that shit my parents fed me about how 'attitude is everything'...well...it's all true. Most of the time the situations we deal with are out of our control - and all we can choose is how to react to them. If a situation is less than desirable - work your way out of it. If an individual or group is sucking life from you - cut them and yourself free. Life is too fucking short to waste time on being hopeless. So... No more time wasted on pointing out inane shortcomings - inside and out. No more knee-jerk reactionary bullshit. Deal? Deal. Are you just gonna sit there and bleed, or are you gonna do something about it? Current Music: The Skeletones - Vicissitudes (Comment on this)